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I am constant. but not.
I am an individual. but im just another girl you pass on the street.
I am smart. but i am stupid.
I am striving for perfection but im setting myself up for failure.
I am scared but i want to be brave.
I am wanting to accept reality but i am in denial.
I am wishing time would stop but i know its a wish that'll never come true.
I am holding onto balloons knowing i will never float away.
I am wanting to take the jump. but am too busy thinking about the fall.
I am different but the same.
I am dreaming all the time but i know reality will smack me in the face.
I am me and i am also you.